Words/Fanfiction/Promise Forever
Title: Promise Forever
Rating: PG-13 (Shounen-ai)
Game: FF10
Pairing: Tidus x Auron
Description: After Home is destroyed, Tidus is distraught. What can Auron do to help?
Oh how I wish I had answers to everything. Why people think I do, I will never understand. Just because I was the guardian of Lord Braska means nothing. Sure I have seen things, things other people could never even imagine, but that does not mean I am some kind of record book. No, but I can give a straight answer on what happened today, a day that probably shook and changed all our souls. Home was destroyed.
I don't know how I can keep a stern face all the time... Some sights I've seen I just want to let all the feelings go and cry. Today was one of them, but I'll be damned if somebody was to see me do such a thing.
The airship is quiet now, compared to the loud racket it usually makes. Though it may be against Yevon, I believe we did the right choice for using it. If we didn't, we would be dead. It had taken more than a few hours to get where we are now, and everybody has already headed to the sleeping hall. Cid had told me before I headed off to the sleeping hall myself that we were landing far up north, so nobody would be able to find us incase the Guado and their fiend forces followed us. He suggested that everybody stayed indoors for the night, but some calloused Al Bhed retreated with a knapsack to sleep under the stars. I'd rather be outside myself, but I dare not leave the airship. Anything could happen if you turn your back, even when things seem calm.
So I sit next to the window, looking at the bright stars that twinkle endlessly, and the moon that seems to give the stars their glow... A strange feeling comes inside... Am I really just a star that refuses to burn out? Is the moon angry with me for not giving up yet? Is he upset that not even he can break my promises? I believe my will to succeed is harder than the ice that lays itself across these northern lands. My will to protect and to help the ones I must is my true power.
Yevon knows how long I've been up. It seems like the whole room is cascading with snores and grunts that never cease. Turning my gaze to look around the dim room, I realize that Tidus isn't anywhere to be seen. "That's strange," I whisper. He was there an hour ago, how he got out without me knowing is a mystery. Placing my booted feet on the floor I make my way to the door, not caring if I wake anybody in the process. Walking up and down the halls of the airship, Tidus wasn't anywhere to be found. I knew he was upset, probably just as upset as Rikku is, and it pained me... It felt like I had failed again.
The door to the large observant deck opened and I treaded my feet up the small flight of stairs heavily. Moonlight spilled through the room like paint, and everything thing could be seen as clear as day. As I expected, Tidus sat across from a large paneled window, staring off into complete nothingness. He had wrapped himself in one of those thick blankets the airship had stored away, his arms hugging those two strong legs to his chest. His piercing aqua eyes could be seen even from where I was standing. I frowned.
With serious doubt that he even acknowledged my presence, I walked away from the staircase and took a seat next to him. We sat for a long time without anybody speaking, with an estimate, I would say a half hour. Finally, Tidus spoke, his childish voice that never seemed to fit his true age, was dampened with a great depression that even I could feel it. "We'll get Yuna back... Right?"
I did not have an answer. A question like that can only be answered with opinions and hopes. "I do not know." The words came out a little harsher than I expected them to, but he did not seem to notice the tone, just the words. "It wouldn't matter anyways would it?" I could see his arms clench to his legs tighter, even through the thick blue blanket. "Auron! Why didn't you tell me! If you knew, why didn't you tell me!" His head swung to look at me, his soft face being illuminated with the gentle glow of the forgiving moon, and his blonde hair seemed even brighter than it was in the sunlight. Narrowing my eyebrows a little I replied, "Would that have changed anything? If I told you from the beginning, you would have caused a disturbance! You could have never changed what has happened!" Pausing with a sigh, I continued, "She was destined to do this. Please understand Tidus, I did not want her to do it either." Tidus turned his head back to the window. I did not take my eyes off of him, even when he started to cry, it hurt like getting hit by a powerful fiend, but I wanted to say something... Anything.
It is no fair to him... No fair to him that he never knew. They should have told him! They should have known! They should have believed! I placed a hand on Tidus' shoulder. His blonde head turned slowly, those aqua eyes fixated on mine again. It is my fault for not telling him. Now he has to suffer like I had to. Why is he getting my past? Why is he destined to get a path that leads to harm? "Please Tidus... You're making me hurt more than you can ever believe. Stop crying." I placed a warm palm on his ice-cold face, swiftly whipping away a new tear with my thumb. He retreated a hand from the blanket and gripped tightly on my arm. His eyes still leaking the salty fluid, he began to heave, sharp breaths being sucked in-between his delicate lips; I was afraid he was going to break. No, don't give up yet. You are acting like me, do not be a coward! You are stronger than I was! "Tidus... I know you'll find Yuna... I know it." Moving my other hand onto his shoulder, I pulled him sideways to face myself. His vision wobbled, but focused back onto me. "And I believe you'll be able to succeed at something I was unable to." Slipping my hand from his face, I wrapped both arms around his small frame, bringing him close to me. Bringing him to an embrace.
His heaves turned into loud cries, though he tried to muffle them by burying his head in the curve of my neck. For a few minutes he did not return the embrace, but soon I could feel his tiny yet powerful arms wrap themselves around my waist. His hands found their grip on the belt that held my kimono shut, and I could tell he wasn't going to let up anytime soon. "I just want... To..." He heaved again then continued, "Go home!" He lifted his hands up, shifting my belt upwards too. "Dammit!" Moving his head from my neck, he placed his forehead in the middle of my chest plate. I could feel the tears soak through the pants I wear, though they are not coming as fluently like before. "I... I... I'm sorry..." The tone of his voice was low and sleek and full of emotion. His head rested on my shoulder again; both of us still locked in the embraced we shared on the iron floor, I placed my lips on his soft young cheek. The taste was salty with tears, but his youth made me feel younger and happier. He did not mind. He did not mind when I ran my calloused hand through his soft locks of gold, either. How I wish he does not have to earn the scars I have. Let him be young and beautiful forever. He has too good of a soul for that.
And he did not mind when I tilted his face to mine and placed my lips on his.
The moment didn't last long; our faces were separate again, almost as soon as they were joined. I could tell he was confused, though his face looked serene. Placing my lips on his again, I forced his mouth open with my chin, letting my tongue explore his sweet tasting mouth. With little time he was playing too, both our tongues in a soft fight of luck, at the same time his grip on my belt seemed to tighten. His eyes did not close until we separated, landing one last peck on his lips I smiled. "Don't ever feel like you're alone. I'll be with you to protect you, and to help you." Again he rested his head on the curve of my neck. Finishing up, I spoke in a lower tone, "I never break my promises... Ever."
Moving myself to rest my back on the short wall that lead to the staircase, I moved Tidus to sit next to me, and placing my arm around his shoulder his head still resting at the same place. With my free hand I grabbed the thick blue blanket and covered us both up. Finally, I rested my cheek on the top of his golden head. "Don't have nightmares, Tidus. There is no need for them when they'll soon be gone."
"But what if they do..." His voice low, damp with the clue of not enough sleep.
"I'll be awake if they happen to come." I answered, reassuring the boy.
Jecht told me to take care of you. I promised him I would. But I never thought I could love and care for you as much as I do, Tidus. You remind me of so many things, so many things I hate, and so many things I love. And just for that, I will protect you with my life. I will not make the same mistake I did before... We will find another way. Yevon forbid you to be unhappy, Tidus. Yevon forbid it.
He never once woke that night. His face was calm, being evident with a small curl to his lips. I promised I would stay up. I never break promises.
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